You’re untouchable, so untouchable. But maybe, together we’d be a little taste of heaven. But, you’re untouchable. Tied together with a smile, but when you’re close, I come undone. I’m caught up in you.

xo <3

FML @ that music assignment. So boring, I’ve done most of alto, need to finish tenor and bass, and it’s due tomorrow. I think I just won’t hand it in or I’ll do it in class. Mehhhh.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrg.

Just wait til senior next year

And LOL @ the Year 12 Grad speech today. “Yo, I’ma let you finish, but POLDING was one of the best teams of all time, all time” lmfao. and not even. Clancy ftw…

I’m currently sunburnt, and that’s not too good. Tanning is skin cells in trauma

I feel very “weird” at the moment. It’s like.. I’m not in a place where I want to be. Like I’m in the middle of somewhere and nowhere. Somewhere in the middle with you. But gosh. I don’t know what to do.  All I know, is that I’m coming on the second last week of school, and I did nothing this weekend in the way of schoolwork. I beached it, I citied it, I partied it, I familied it, I worked it, I did not school it. Uhhh though I cannot wait for school to be over and done with for the year. I’m so blah.

I think these holidays will be good. I sure hope so. Braces on the 30th. Bottom only, but blehh. It’s yucky, but I must do it if I want a nice smile. Should’ve just worn the goddamn retainers first time around. I’ll work them, I guess… not. Christmas should be heaps fun. It’s at ours this year. (:

Oh gosh. I sound like Josh Thomas with these goshes. I think I may read some MLIA, go to bed, read a book and fall asleep. .

Oh gosh.

I will do anything to be able to go.

I want to go.

Taylor Swift, take me away.

Yep, whatever Simon and I had is over. OK, so on Wednesday, we had our thing, presentation we both had to do. That went off well, until after it, two bitches girls told Simon accidentally that I liked him. I was like the last one to find out, a day later. I spent music, lunch and period 3 crying. In Period 3 & 4 myself, Jess, Brigid, Laura and Danni hid out in our Year Coordinator’s office just talking about anything and everything. It was so good, it prepared me for what happened yesterday. So of course, I felt I had to go and apologize to Simon because I didn’t want the girls to tell him, I wanted to. So yesterday morning, I woke up, thought “my God, he’s beautiful” and put on my makeup and prayed for a miracle. We had our School Sports Carnival also yesterday, so anyway, while I was waiting for my turn in shot put, I saw Simon come my way. Not to me, but near me. Anyway, I stopped me and this is what I said:

“About Wednesday with what the girls said. Well, I just wanted to say that I didn’t want them to tell you, I wanted to be the one to tell you.. and I’m sorry.”

“Yeah, OK”. *walks away*

And I am done with your twisted symphony

The words that had me sounding like stolen poetry

Don’t surrender, surrender, surrender.

Please remember, remember, December.

I remember us together

With a promise of forever

Just what I had feared. Completely awakward. I really hope I can continue to be friends with him just like we were before. Wednesday was such a great day. We talked about heaps of stuff and we were becoming good friends, and now..

Anyways, I had a night where I cried myself to sleep, because it was supposed to hurt. I sat next to the fire, as the flame was burning out. But, I feel better now. I don’t know, my friend told me I shouldn’t give up. Easy enough for him, he’s the same age as Simon and his girlfriend is my age.

In conclusion: My heart is not broken. I was not in love with Simon, I just liked him a hella lot. I need a little bit of time, but not too long. The fire won’t burn out completely, embers will burn as a memory. I want us to be friends again, like before the storm. I hope his mum doesn’t find out, ’cause I know her and it will be even more awkward. Simon is Prince Not-So Charming.

p.s. My Demi Lovato – Here We Go Again CD came, could you tell?

xo A not so broken Rosemarie Letizia.

Picture: Look, I’m still alive:

P.S. I’m talking to Simon on msn now. We’ve gotten past the “awkward” bit and we’re talking about guitar battling each other. I think we’re better off as friends. (:

When about 30 people dressed like Hippies turn up at Macca’s all at once, there’s bound to be trouble. It was hilarious, just looking at ourselves, thinking, “wow, we look stupid”. I was so hungry for a feed by then, I got indigestion gutsing down my burger, chips and Oreo McFlurry. Yumm. There were Bowling Lanes near the MacDonalds, so we all went Bowling instead. I go bowling almost every Thursday afternoon for school sport and this is how it goes: Bowl (gutterball) *rage* Bowl (gutterball) *rage*. I just suck and I get so wound up, I so would’ve preferred to go Rollerskating, but whatever, not much I could do about it, honestly. So yeah, we bowled.

I was wearing my white dress and roman sandles (not 70/80’s, I know, I didn’t dress up) and you know when you go Bowling how they have cool lights? My dress was glowing, and it was sooooo cool! Haha, I was fascinated with that.

So, hopefully, we’ll go Rollerskating again, but actually go this time, ’cause I did want to go.

Questions:

1. Top Bowling Score ever?
- Mines 54 :/ :/ :/
2. Can you rollerskate?
- Maybe if I did last night lol.
3. Do you do Youth Group activities like that?
- First time ever. Why can’t Catholicism be cool like that? lol

xoxo Rosie

We’ll skip to lunch, because that’s when everything that’s blog-worthy happened. My “group” consists of three main boys, they’re all my good friends + my best friend Laura and sometimes different people come and eat lunch with us etc. ANYWAY, It was just Aaron, Josh, Laura and I sitting at the table talking. Then somehow, (I wasn’t in a good mood already) we got into our “OMFG GLOBAL WARMING’S REAL” debate. Me, being on the side which believes the debate is not over, that the fact that C02 emissions, do not cause the world to warm. ANYWAY, they always gang up on me, there’s more of them and I got shitty (as I do). So I get up and yell “STUFF YOU! I’M GOING TO GET SIMON TO BACK ME UP!” Simon had previously said that he would help me whenever I got into a mess like this, but I wasn’t planning to go and face him and his Year 12 friends and steal him away. Anyway, I walk down to the oval, near the Year 12 Common Room and there he was watching the High Jump (for our sports carnival). While I was debating whether or not I should go and ask him, he turned around and saw me, so I walked over to him.

“Having fun?” I asked.
“Not really, no,” he replied.
“Uhhh so can you come up and tell my friends that Global Warming’s a load of shit, please?”
“Yeah sure.”
“It’s just I get all frazzled, and they gang up on me..”. I said frazzled? Haha.

So he grabbed the plastic chair he was sitting on and walked me up to the other end of the school where my friends sit. When they saw us, their jaws like dropped, they couldn’t believe I actually went and got him. Then we sat down, he said basically what I’ve been saying all along, but they actually listened to him. When I asked Aaron why, he said “it’s because he’s cool”. Yeah, well, I get that alot :/ Haha anyway, it was in their face.

THEN I walk over to my friend Liv and she’s all “OMG I saw you at lunch, you were sitting together etc.” and I’m like “Chyeahhh (:”

Are you guys proud of me? I am, I’m so glad I just went and did it.

BUT on the other hand, I’m not sure what’s going on between Simon and I. My mum’s going to ruin his mum’s business, and I hope he doesn’t hate me for that. Before today, I thought he might or something. I guess it’s whatever now though :/ But today I was taking special notice as to how he acted around me. I mean, I don’t think he likes me. But he doesn’t know I like him. Well, I hope he doesn’t. From what you know, should I not be the smart, over looked girl who’s in love with the guy who’s 2 1/2 years older than her and like a million times more popular, yet he’s my friend, and he’s not particularly good looking, but I like him for his intelligence and the way he thinks/personality etc.?

Ehhh, I’ve got time to decide, I guess.

xoxo Rosie

Simon and I talk a bit, but sometimes it’s because we have to. But, my God, the other day while we were walking past each other, he saw me, locked eyes and smiled. I’m such a sucker for a smile. But then again, one of my life motto is “I Guess I was Fooled by Your Smile”. That and “Loved You Before I Met You” & “Love Is Blind; So You Couldn’t See Me”. Yeah, they’re all Taylor Swift (:

So title of this blog. Got Dynamite? Got Dynamite by Demi Lovato is my favourite song at the moment. At the start, it kind of sounds like Muse’s song Supermassive Black Hole (you know, from Twilight), but then it just gets better. The lyrics are very clever, the chorus is catchy. Overall, I love it.

So, let me tell you about my sport. I mean, I’ve got nothing else to say. OK, so Thursday afternoons, the whole of Grade 10 are having Interhouse Competitions this term. We get to do bowling and touch football. This week it was Green (my team) and Blue’s go at bowling. The first five bowling attempts I got nothing! It gave epic fail a definition. Then I stressed, and hid my iPod in my shirt and listened to You Rock My World by MJ & Got Dynamite and got in the zone. The next 5 bowling attempts were pretty good for me. If that would’ve been the start, I would’ve been winning. I still came last, but not by much and was proud of myself. Now I know how I should bowl. While dancing. (;

xx Rosie

I just want you home. Dad’s making us clean and last night he cooked Spag Bol even though he says cooking’s “womens work”. I couldn’t convince him otherwise haha. Hope you had fun at your Mexican Dinner last night. I miss you and I love you. Come home soon.

xoxo Rosie.

For the uninformed:
My mums in Sydney for some Optometrist thing. Jamie works on our Palm Plantation. Lilli is my sister and so is Katy. (:

So. SIMON!!! He’s old news. Well, not really. I want out of our one sided relationship. Blahhhh! I just heard my friend saw him with this girl. AHH! I cannot be paranoid about it.. I’m going to forget about him. Well, I can’t completely, ’cause that’s kinda mean and heartless so I’ll just.. Breathe Breathe Breathe.. JESS! You made me paranoid!! Arghhhh, I’m so frustrated now. Lol @ me. :/

People are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out.
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

OK, no need to be paranoid anymore. I found out who the girl was. She was no one important to this particular blog. And now I feel silly ’cause I know who it is. Silly, silly me.

So I can’t go to the show. Like the regional show thing. With rides, fairy floss, dagwood dogs and other disgusting foods that wanna make you puke after you’ve ridden the Zipper. Mum’s gonna be in Sydney for some optometrist thing and Dad’s not gonna take me and my sisters. So no one tell me how good it was, I don’t care honestly, haha. And also since Mum’s gonna be gone, there will be no going anywhere, no doing anything and no friends over and going over friends. Like I would anyway, out here where I live, I’m cut off from my friends :/

Anyways, I’m gonna go before I stress myself haha.
Ciao,
xoxo Rosie